a good 5 months

this last few days of the week are quite fun:]
yup but still have only 5 months.
a cumulative amt of time

cant let the music stop
cos if i do it will all be over
haha..
to quote david arch
lov ethe song

purple coloured yam ice cream

sercurity

my heart feels so very free
cos' you are my security

another day
here i go again
drive myself insane.
stop to think
how could i forget
you are with me every single day
now i look
and i see the one,
the only one for me.
cos i dont need to search for
im so glad you found me cos other relationships confuse me.

i need you so close to me cos your the only one that makes my complete
oh Lord i
know it took me so long to see
that you are my security.

canada

i have a dream.
and in that forseeable dream. i imagine myself. flying. and having with me many cases
and then landing. and then realising that i want to stay for a while but then want to be where my heart truly is.

so cliche.
i didnt dream this while asleep. its something or rather someplace i want to go, badly!
i need money though. to carry out this plan. it will be so amazing.

things in march

everything is ok?
find me a person who says that everything is ok....and i .....
haha.
how can everything be ok in this world?
its so crazy.
before i start to rant about the unfairness n complexity in life.
let me have a moment to just be a teenager and say tht life can suck at times.
ugh. living and life can really be a pain in the behind.

oh nothing much

my ma asked me a question today and i replied oh, nothing much...
and she remembered this book i used to read as a little kid.
this little boy couldnt watch tv one day. so he resorted to playing with cardboard boxes, trying to entertain himself. his mother kept checking up on him. asking him what he was doing. and his reply was to say nothing much.
so funny. she remembered the book. i remember it. i was purple and green. and the tv was big.

ITLOW

i have been inspired by adam brody to jog.
all i need is some groovy, loud beats to keep me jogging away all the fat around the mid-section,
i read in the news that asians generally store quite a sum of fat around the belly.
wait, dont most ppl have fat around thier tummy.
i guess some of us buldge while the rest of us sag.haha :]
im beginning to like jogging. its kinds relaxing.
especially around the pasir ris park.
warning!
the sea is full of bacteria. dont even think about squelching your toes in the sand. because odds are you'll just see some things u wont be too happy to see.
for example. rubbish
there was a cucumber top, lying on the beach.
a green, firm, not-sea-cucumber-but an actual cucumber, cucumber.
we need cleaner beaches.
i miss the kelong, although, it was all salt.

im no bodiess fool

Step up, step up, step upStep up, step up, step upStep up, step up, step upFall backTake a look at meAnd you'll seeI'm for realI feel what only I can feelAnd if that don't appeal to youLet me knowAnd I'll go'Cuz I flowBetter when my colors showAnd that's the way it has to beHonestly'Cuz creativityCould never bloomIn my roomI'd throw it all away before I lieSo don't call me with a compromiseHang up the phoneI've got a backboneStronger than yoursLa la la la la laLa la la la la la laLa la la la la laYeah, yeah, yeah[chorus]If you're trying to turn me into someone elseIts easy to see I'm not down with thatI'm not nobody's foolIf you're trying to turn me into something elseI've seen enough and I'm over thatI'm not nobody's foolIf you wanna bring me downGo ahead and tryGo ahead and tryYou don't knowYou think you know me like yourselfBut I fearThat you're only telling me what I wanna hearBut do you give a damnUnderstandThat I can'tNot be what I amI'm not the milk in cereals in your spoonIts not a simple here if I'm not so soonI might've fallen for that when I was fourteenAnd a little more greenBut it's amazing what a couple of years can meanLa la la la la laLa la la la la la laLa la la la la laYeah, yeah[chorus]If you're trying to turn me into someone elseIts easy to see I'm not down with thatI'm not nobody's foolIf you're trying to turn me into something elseI've seen enough and I'm over thatI'm not nobody's foolIf you wanna bring me downGo ahead and tryGo ahead and tryGo ahead and tryTry to look me in the eyeBut you'll never see insideUntil you realizeRealizeThings are trying to settle downJust try to figure outExactly what I'm aboutIf it's with or without youI don't need you doubtin' me[chorus]If you're trying to turn me into someone elseIt's easy to see I'm not down with thatI'm not nobody's foolIf you're trying to turn me into something elseI've seen enough and I'm over thatI'm not nobody's foolIf you wanna bring me downGo ahead and tryTryLa la la la la la (yeah, yeah)La la la la la la la (yeah, yeah)La la la la la la (oh)La la la la la la (would you be laughing out loud)La la la la la la la (if I played to my own crowd)La la la la la la (try)

on the express to being like everyone else

intellectually!
i feel behind. haha. its not even a feeling.
i am behind.

i gave myself a hoilday. cos the initial plan was for me to go to kl and then melacca with my momma and dada. we didnt go cos the car broke down,yet again. how many times would i have to witness, more like sit in the car. for me to get a hint.
and that hint is to take the bus!! or mrt. you cant expect to be chauferred your whole life. at least until im 18. i cant wait to drive!
while we were on the way to the woods area.
take a line, pick a number and wait for your turn.
boy, was i not excited to spend two weeks like that, in that situation.
ugh. i need tution! anyone out there? willing to sponser a kids bio practical fees?
haha. need to pester my mum to sign me up for smart lab. so i can be a smatter more smarter.

"commit to the Lord, the plans of your heart!"
and they won't fail. the Lords plans have never failed.
im not ashamed to admit to the world that im a CHRISTIAN. haha. im free.
its a relationship, not a religion.

i once was blind but now i see

moive recommendation!

if u feel the need to be inspired or u just like to watch movies. i highly recommend
drum roll please. this movie was released only in dvd.
what's the title.
ok...
its amazing grace.
yeah. not the song, nope. somewhere along the lines.

haha. its a movie based on a few centuries back.

so do expect, some real good, rich and strong, slightly phlegmy english accents.
hehe..i dont mean to make fun.

the thing is, purchase the dvd. and u will follow along just nice.
with the english subtiltles.


so....
the content?
in a nut shell, is abt slavery.
politics
law
moral values
dont turn up your nose.
cos slavery is still happening in the 21st century. but just in different forms.

slave to your master. if u think abt how a slaves depend on their master.
and how it needs its master for income, and shelter and just the bare necessecties
how about a 21st century teen? how can it apply?

slave to your laptop there are quite a handful of ppl really dependent on their electronic consoles,materialistic things and even, their maids..(helpers,people who clean up after a family)
i for one love to go online. and only think abt the stuff going on in my life and family's.
(email,facebook,youtube.)
theres nothing wrong with being human.. doing things for yourself
maybe i wasn't fully aware that there was such a thing as slavery,
its hard to put yourself in their shoes and imagine yourself in an english, jane austen era?
and the fact that the movie potryed something so historical, yet really important.
i could feel the injustice as i watched the movie.

so maybe i compare, Singapore is so secure and protected.
theres not blatant "slavery"
im channeling my compassionate side. yet, who needs the pity?

so its actually this guy a few centuries ago who made that difference. he went into law. and by went into law, he took on the full responsibilty (with a few aids) and it took him so many years to abolish the slave act.
his actions and words are really honourable and admirable.
i can't remember the details. like the year and the names.
i watched it a month ago, i think.
but all i know is that im kinda interested in law. making a difference.
using your voice and giving a voice to those who cant speak.

its more along the lines of making something so importance. it has turned into something u idolize, or cant live without.
bondages.
yup, this is some deep stuff, rather controversial topics im broaching,
so its just a movie,haha, based on a true story. and im just a girl suggesting that u should watch it.

library

borrowed 8 books just the other day.
i haven't even gotten into any, except 2 chapters of sarah dessen, lock and key.
its really nice. the theme and story line. just don't have the time to really get into it and finish it in one sitting.
sad.. i cant afford to read novels all day. i have to read text books instead.

season of new beginnings

i feel like i have changed.

just new pespectives in life.

some doses of healthy, healthy stress.

haha.

laughter and running

and brunch and talkiing

lots of words..ugh..i cant trust words

like relient k's song- bite my tongue

yups.

maybe growing a spine

and just being happy.

for the right reasons

humilty vs. pride

Nostalgia

so yesterday. which was wednesday. has been the busyiest and most packed ever. in the history of my home schooled life. firstly i was awake for more than 24 hours straight.

i got so much done. i figured out my future. i planned my sweet 16. i know my purpose in life.

deep huh?

oh i shall start by giving you my dear reader-

[who even bothered to type out this address, with all the hyphens and stuff, because? u know me. u have heard of me. most probably u are an acquaintance who i have accepted to belong to my meagre list of contacts on msn.] a little background peek.

the only publicity i get is through msn. oh wait. on face book. cool. going to do that later.
i used to go to PLMGSP. and i went back to sch the other day.
really weird. everything looked so small. thats probably cos im rather big now.
haha.
oh and before that i watched ink heart with my cousin. yup, thats u jolene!
i spent quite a sum of money that day. on food and the book store and tickets.
it was so fun. except that i was sort of crazy that day.

CNY.

Part2

the first few minutes of the morning on the very first day of the year 2009 was spent clearing up. right after trying to wake up navin with the iron spray thing. he was perched ontop of aunty letchmi's facial bed, you know the ones that are not that wide with hole in the head area to put you face in. anyway. sam sprayed him and he twitched and then went back to sleep. haha. one of the funniest things this year. managed to wake nita with just one spray, she fell alseep half way through the longest yard.

went jolynn's house, talked to eunice and her. it was kind of a gathering with two other families who are real close to my parents.
but i was dozing off when uncle hong lim cracked out his camera and proceded to show all the pictures of their trip to aussie.i wore my new skirt . its enormous. poofy.
and red.

i dont know what i did on the second day.
i have started my tuition classes. for english and math. and i have a plan. to read all my content subjects by february. thats social studies,biology and geography. yes thats my goal. rostina said to me yesterday how i only have half a year and a few months. when u think of it that way, and not having 9 months. then its a teensy weensy bit daunting. i shall be busy studying most of the time.

Recalling part1

the new year.
18 days have passed..
i seriously cant remember much from my first week of the year.
i feel like i have so much to write and dont exactly know where to begin..

okay, i shall start from the past, like last year.
the 24th. such a long time ago.
my extended family has a long standing tradition of meeting on christmas eve. its the usual pigging out on ham and chicken and sausages, its kind of gross thinking about it. i don't even think i was hungry. but i wolfed down my food none the less,in front of the tv.no sit downs. its almost always tv dinners there. with 15 something people all watching. as i said its tradition.
so then we sing some carols and watch more tv. but this year was slightly different. my dad aked my sis to lead a game of dont forget the lyrics, boy was that a horror. i shall not expend on it.
we also watched this video of this ladies testimony. and then we sang carols, however my 6 aunts were kind of preoccupied with my cousins one year old son; keagan. he's a sweetheart. yeah, and at 12 am we went around handshaking peoples hands singing the tune of we wish you a merry christmas all around the hall. then it was present time. man! just recalling this is kind of tiring. i dont know why. ahh.. now on to something interesting. 2 hours later i was packing. 1 hour later i went on my laptop. and 4 hours later i was in the car on the causeway. its probably the first time in a long time that my family was not in singapore on the 25th of december.
3 full days of malaysia. it was fun, my dads side came along. a half a family affair in exotic johor, yeah right.
all we did was eat, sleep and shop and watch movies and tv.
i caught up on 2 episodes of mythbusters.

i bought kung fu panda on dvd. its was 60 rengit. can you believe it? divided by half. thats $30. i told myself its a dvd, plus its kind of an investment, i can watch a panda find himself a thousand times, plus, all the other people who would be able to watch it too. if they wanted to borrow it or something.
and just other day i was at giant. i repeat, giant. that big supermarket in tampines. the very place that sold fish and pickled vegetables that stink, was selling kung fun panda on dvd for $9.90!
i felt kinda annoyed as i stared at the price of sticker, that blue and white circle screaming out to me Singapore dollars 9.90. i even picked it up and turned to see its side spine of the tape. there was DVD in those slanted fonts they so choose to print them as.
ugh. i paid 30 dollars and it was now selling for less than 1/3 the price. i feel cheated.
ok. i think i have ranted about this topic for its worth, freaking 30 dollars.

uh huh. so came back on the 28th. and on the 31st i went to my aunts house to celebrate the new year. how did i celebrate? i watched 4 movies on a projector with my cousins and two other guys related to my uncle.
grid iron gang, which if you ask me is such a cliche. one of the thousands sports-inspirational-prison movie. so tiresome. then coach carter, my thrid time. then catch me if you can which was really cool. and then the longest yard. i guess all that sports flicks have encourged me on my treadmill expeditions. its like an expedition for me to travel (by car) all the way to yishun. and get on the treadmill to jog.
then comes the first day of the year 2009!
where does time go?

blades and combinations

it's been quite some time that i took the old 53 bus. they changed it.
went to wilma's house. chuck! did some chem, little bit. thought her how to blade.
then went to occ. met liz.
forgot comb.
jinx babe.
miss u lots.
see ya in 3mths. ill be the one with the big banner jumping up and down.
cya soon

me week

last week i was out most of the time.
watched madagascar 2 which i give a 2 thumbs up to. did scrap booking. finished reading breaking dawn. i should find out my reading speed sometime. words per minute kind of thing.i'm done with all 4 books.so sad that its all over.stephenie meyer has to write a fithquel.
subway cookies rock! went to danielle's house.
on friday i travelled all the way to yochukang with liz. its not spelt like that... we were both too crazy irritated and laughy.we travelled on the transportation system for like 2 hours.
east coast park. excuses and two flips of a coin later, i was roller blading in some smelly gear. i don't even want to go on about the horrendous stench. then i double biked. that was scary. firstly it was a tad small for the both of us. D'Ette and i. jerky like anything. she had to sit in the front. we were swerving from left to right. and i was screaming like a girl.
had SALT, teachability, as always i was kind of invisible.and the only teen girl. worship and roses.
sunday went to tng, that was nice. funny and deep. bought macs for sam. went to occ in the night. and then to hougang mall! the kopitiam there is furbished really nice.i remember going to hougang mall when i was a small kid. the library was the first library i visited after coming back from india.
i have memories of the jolly bean and that foot reflexology place.

yup that was pretty much my week 46 of this year.

chi-na

wo mei ci qui na bian
this is my attempt to write chinese hanyu pin yin. i used to study chinese when i was in primary school. anyway. my bro is studying chinese now and. my mum asked him a question- how to use the word 'mei ci' in a sentence.
he's so cute. he said 'wo mei ci qui na bian'
'mei ci' means always i think..
its just so funny. if u know mandrin then u would laugh along with me.even more so if u know my brother.

Twilight

unless you have been living under a rock. most of us that have kept up with the current times should know about twilight. it's only the worldwide bestselling book. and i have to say that the moment i picked up that thick book, i was hooked.
the plot is interesting in a way that it brings you into the world of this ordinary girl- Bella Swan, and there are these vampires. i don't want to expend on the content of the book. that is for you to read yourself. which i recommend.

read the book and then go watch the movie. yes! they made a motion picture out of the book. i have probably watched the trailer 20 times. but i have to admit the recent one is abit weird.
weird in the sense that their dialogue in the cafeteria, when bella and edward were talking was kind of boring. their words were all bunched together. monotonous. it sounded better in the book. the part when the apple bounces of his leg and sits in his hand is so computer generated. its so funny.
anyway. i think the movie will be good. i have read new moon already and about 20 pages of eclipse.

a year from now

in one year i will take my exams

about 365 days to prepare

thats not alot of time.